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Andrea Hollander

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(2007 - Poetry)

"Poem in October"

        After Dylan Thomas

It was my twenty-third year and heaven
broke away from my reach as I stood

at her grave.  Rain carved
the morning's stone face into the earth,

and the sky grayed and lowered until
they were one. Back by the trees

men smoked, as if they had nothing
better to do.  But I knew as soon as I left

they would cover even
the roses my father, brother and I

had tossed upon her as if our wishing
could do what prayer had not.

When I finally left, I thought her
gone.  I am fifty-four.  I was wrong.

Andrea Hollander is the author of three full-length poetry collections, Woman in the Painting, The Other Life, and House Without a Dreamer, which won the Nicholas Roerich Poetry Prize. Other honors include the D.H. Lawrence Fellowship, a Pushcart Prize for memoir, the Runes Poetry Award, two Arkansas Arts Council fellowships in poetry, and two creative writing fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts, as well as more than a dozen other national awards. Born in Berlin, Germany, and raised in Colorado, Texas, New York, and New Jersey, Budy has lived since 1977 in the Ozark Mountains near Mountain View, Arkansas, in a house her husband, Todd, designed and built. Since 1991, Budy has been the Writer-in-Residence at Lyon College, where she was awarded the Lamar Williamson Prize for Excellence in Teaching.

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Author's Statement

Sixteen years ago, when I worked full-time as an innkeeper and part-time as an instructor at a nearby college, I won my first Creative Writing Fellowship from the National Endowment for the Arts. I was forty-four years old and had not yet published a full-length poetry collection. The fellowship both encouraged and enabled me to devote more focused time to the completion of House Without a Dreamer, which was published two years later as a result of winning the Nicholas Roerich Poetry Prize. Although I no longer work as an innkeeper, my position as the Writer-in-Residence at Lyon College is half-time (I teach only one semester each year), and while this sounds ideal for a writer, I must find half-time work elsewhere in order to make a living. This second fellowship from the NEA will allow me to spend more dedicated time working toward my fourth full-length collection of poems (my second was published in 2001, my third in 2006).

I write because I believe in the power of poetry to positively transform our emotional lives. And I appreciate the affirmation this fellowship affords. The generous monetary award is significant, especially for poets, as we can never earn a living solely from creating poems. I am very grateful to the panel of contemporary poets who served as jurors this year, as well as to the staff of the NEA, who work to guarantee that writers continue to receive such grants.